Christians only .. Adultress marriage help?
hi please be nice,, im 28 husb 49 we are a interational couple we been together 8 years,, i belonged to a church were everyone lay hands on you and pray, some people had lusts spirits that jumped off in me. here i am being filled with Gods power of the holy ghost every sunday, people would talk and be jealous about mebut i loved the church, i was sappose to get ordained as a minister but God would show me different things in people.. i let a guy lay hands on me and believe i taken on a lust spirit i love my husband so much but i was messing with the guy that lives in the Church and keeps it clean, i fell in love with him an i had sex with him and fell in love with that, the men new how the people were in the church but he needed a place to live,, and he would go over the bible with me,, he saw me a a nice giving person lovable i did things for him braught him gifts on holidays were he saw the love of God in me, he also saw me get filled really powerful with Gods holy Ghost alot even he experienced it at my home and he had to hold me because i was about to break my tv,, but we sinned and we drunk whine not alcohol contradicting Gods word,, i know right from wrong, i tried to avoid the situation but i fell in and it as all my fault , my problem is this man is a unforgiving person and hold grudges against people and the least thing you do to try to help him he gets angry alot .. we drunk the other day and alot of times he have called me names, like too perfect, holy woman then ha say im God ,, and then he say God no what we need and i tell him io no i messed up can we be obedient to God and live right, he says for me not to say that an when he gets mad he calls me devil evil witchcraft, he curses and say he never curse until i came along , he call me witchcraft and all other bad demonic things .. he done it plenty of times before and easily i forgave him,, but this time he said and was holding me tight were i couldnt let go evil evil you are evil and thats the way i like you an we was drinking wine,, when you drink the real you come out another time he told me that i sold my soul to him,, he play slaps me and laughs and i slap him back harder and he enjoys it and laughs,, i called him a homo and he got really upset but he have really destroyed me an im try to get on track with God .. and he blames it all on me ,, i have try to help him spiritually and when i say we cant do nothing he say ok just hug an kiss i say no and he get mad and i get mad cuz i want to live for God and i dont want to leave him and he think im a bad christian neither though i know i was when i slept with him ,,, he needs help how to love an he saw i am helping ,,, but the more i help him he hurts me an calls me demons when i know i have God in me,,, he also have a kid fettish he always holds others kids in the church on his lap an he never stay in service but i dont go to the church nomore ,,,please help what to do im not sleeping with him anymore an he same age as my hubsand
